I really need someone to be here with me I'm on the verge of losing it everyday but everyone around me feels lesser or bigger than me I know the feeling deep in my heart and I'm beginning to hate the pity they're all giving me; having the face of an angel is far from a blessing but a curse bestowed upon god-- you're nothing holy to man, they've stopped worshipping since the lord was revealed to be a sham. you're just another face, and you're not even pretty. can;t i feel pretty? let me be pretty. i want to be like the other people, the other girls and boys, and be able to look in the mirror. what was the purpose to give me this face? i am not even an angel. god had no reason to interfere with anything, i dont like that he interfered with it. are you reading? can you still read it? i'm disappearing, im slowly losing myself. if you know me, you do, do you? im back again. im back where i once hated, im back where im most comfortable and im back where i most feared. this is the eyes ive worn for several years before gouging them out for better-- "better" ones. i can't handle it anymore, i can't handle any of you anymore, i can't handle me anymore. in 3 years ill be held accountable for my actions, i'll finally be recognized-- but for nothing good. i would have killed a man, and it would take the world 3 years before they recognize that i am a sinner, a maniac, a crazed child. i was. a child.